That Was Weird

So, no longer having a goal in place, I told myself, "Enjoy then! Until you come up with a new plan, have what you want. Yahoo!"

Fine.

I was helping a friend with a big clean of her place --found so many bags of cookies in her cupboard. I snapped up what I thought was a bag of my favourites. When I realized it was a different kind, I was disappointed and thought, "Nah..." As if! As if I'd ever before turned down any chocolatey, creamy cookies because they weren't my absolute, top, all-time favourites! Anyway...

I opted for the second bag, those cinnamon swirly ones, then put them back, thinking, "Actually, I'll have one after we're all done working here."

I never did have one of those cookies. I FORGOT about them! Huh?!? When I thought of them later, it was a passing consideration, gone as fast as it'd arrived.

And THEN I went for an evening walk, telling myself to go ahead and have a Super Jos Louis. I was, I kid you not, TINGLING with anticipation. The texture, the taste...I went to the store, not giving a crap what any of you thought of me, I was having this...I went to the Super Jos Louis section, looked..."Nah..."

What the?!?!

Truly, my whole body and soul said, "Nah..." I kept looking at that package, almost trying to convince myself of how good it was going to be. But as I continued looking at the package, all I could think was, "That doesn't look all that good." I imagined eating it. Nothing. A little turned off, actually.

Weird.

I was, though, attracted enough to the little specialty, sugar-free bar I've been allowing myself once a week all the way along. I took one of those and enjoyed it.

I can't believe my body said no! All that daydreaming, anticipating, tingling...

It's a good thing, just totally weird to me.